Gurdjieff's Supposition:

In order, through sincerity, to create within yourself true and actualized "being", of which is the ability and right to act correctly with fundamental will-knowledge, to "Do" ... pronounce and know, I am, I can, and I wish ... with certainty, and feeling.

My take:

I haven't found it very simple to assert my will effectively, and I'm not sure if it is possible. I'm left wondering if through any system I could ever be more effective with the actions of will... it reminds me of heaping on desires... I'm not sure if it is even necessary or realistic... I think I do much better in a passive stance, to adjust tangentially finding angles that are beneficial slightly adjacent to the main and pronounced theme.

To continue... it reminds me of Taoism and Jujitsu... while Taoism has always reminded me of 'going with the flow" ... which is fine until you get annoyed and act, sometimes rashly... It may be suppression and release, probably in unhealthy ways. Thick skin, letting things go... it's bull shit.

But side stepping and acting with knowledge, giving things consideration... it involves timing and space... creating space... watching first impressions... moving energy and not reacting.

How long one must work on impulse control.

A hermitage, a home, space...

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